THIS guy..

I just want to publicly announce my love for Jordan.

Tonight, I started crying for no reason, just being emotional and thinking about life and being a girl. Jordan just grabbed me and held me and let me wipe my tears on his shirt. He even wiped some snot off my nose. He always knows exactly what to say to make the tears stop and put a smile on my face. My worst fear in life is somehow not having Jordan. I could cry just thinking about the idea, I think if you are married we probably share this same fear, but, the chances are slim that something would ever happen. so for now, i just look forward to the eternity I have with jordan, no other amount of time would do.

My top ten.

Okay so no one "tagged" me because i'm not exactly "popular" in the blogging world, but I saw this and think it is fun so i'm going to do one anyway. So, enjoy all of you 9 people that read my blog.

Ten things I cannot live without.

1. Jordan. He completes me. He puts the sun in my rainy days, and he's my cuddly blanket when i'm cold. Jordan melts my heart, always knows what I am thinking, how I am feeling, and what to say or do to help me be happy. Just being with Jordan is the best feeling in the world. He is perfect. and I could not ask for more.

2. My Family. I honestly have the best family in the whole world and don't know what I would do without them. My parents are amazing and I hope someday I can be just like them. Im so lucky to have five great brothers, five, cute funny and awesome sister in laws, and 8 (soon to be 9) nieces and nephews that should all model for baby gap.

3. CANDY. I could live on candy. its disgusting. I love any candy, but some of my current favorites are the trolli sour gummi worms, almond joys, kit kats, delicious suckers, and anything carmely.

4. Shopping. It gives me a sense of purpose in life. Im obsessed with the new fall fashions and cannot wait to get to San Fran and get my shopping on (I think jordan is worried about this).

5. Church. Being at church is uplifting and helps me get through my week. The gospel is so true and great.

6. Lazy days. I love days that me and jordan don't have to work and can just lay around together all day and be lazy. I need at least one of these days a week to be happy.

7. Exercise. I live for good workouts. I love the way I feel afterwards, and every time I workout it makes me more motivated to go harder the next day.

8. The Office. (okay so i could probably live without it) but it is honestly the most clever, hilarious show that has been on T.V for a long time. If you don't watch it, you should start.

9. My friends. Even though I don't live by any of my friends right now, I love all of them and cherish all of the fun times we have had together!

10. Fun road trips. I always loved going to SLC to visit Ty and Jen, or driving to Southern Cal for thanksgiving to stay with Clint and Mary. I just love little getaways, it gives me something to look forward to and breaks up the routine.

on a more positive note..

I feel kind of bad about the angry tone of my last post so, im going to blog about some positive things in life right now.
1. I started a scrapbook. I am not a creative person but have had SO SO much fun scrapbooking. I started from the very first picture me and Jord ever took and will scrapbook until the very last picture we have taken. I am obsessed with the way its looking. It is so fun going to the scrapbooking store and getting cute little things to put on the pages, and i think that jordan likes it too, who doesn't like looking at old pictures of when you are falling in love?
2. Jordan and I both have next saturday off! This is exciting because I haven't been able to sleep in with Jordan for a while now. Lately we both have been working saturdays and it sucks because its pretty much the only day (besides sunday) we have the whole day to be together. SO I know its just a small thing, but very exciting.
3. WE ARE GOING TO SAN FRANCISCO OVER THE HALLOWEEN WEEKEND! This might be the most exciting thing of all. We are SO SO SO excited. I have never been there, so we are going to do all the tourist things, like: go to alcatraz, ride a street car, go SHOPPING, eat at delicious restaurants, and go the the great art museums. And it is extra awesome because Marielle McCombs(our photographer at the reno reception) offered for us to stay at their house in Oakland.. therefore, allowing us to save that money and spend it on fun tourist things. I can NOT wait. I hope the next 13 days go by fastttttt.
4. Despite the complaining about money, we ARE saving money. and putting most of it away for when we are back in the Burg in january.
5. I have Jordan. I still can't believe it sometimes. He can always make me smile or laugh no matter what. He is perfect.
So in conclusion, I am blessed, even though some days I can't count them very well.
love you all

I HATE money.

Why do our lives revolve around making money? Why do I have to save my money instead of having fun?! Why does the economy suck so bad that i can barely afford any new cute clothes?
Why does my job give me no hours so that I can just sit at home and make no money and wait for jordan to come home the whole day? Sorry that this is negative, but today is NOT a good day.

The way it used to be...

Sometimes, now and then, I find myself wishing Me and Jord could go back to last fall. Things were so easy then, go to class, go to the gym, and spend all night every night with Jordan. No job, no worries about health/car insurance, housing plans, we had all our friends around us, and we got to see eachother WHENEVER WE WANTED! ...

NOW, Jordan works 9-530 and doesnt get home until 615 sometimes. My pukey schedule at P.F changs varies from week to week, but im usually done by 2:30 monday-thursday, and i dont even work on fridays or saturdays (the only saturdays they have me work are always the saturdays jordan has off, naturally), so mostly I stay at home and feel completely useless, wishing i could find SOMETHING i could do to make more money..(what im doing right now).

It just sucks because all i want is to do spend time with jordan as much as i can, and when i can't it makes me really sad.

Earlier today, Jordan and I met for lunch at pita pit (we usually meet fridays for lunch since I dont work). After that I returned a purse to TJMax( my endless search for a purse i actually like will never end) , now I think i might do a few pages in the scrapbook I started. Im scrapbooking me and Jordan from the very beginning of us, until now. im not very creative, but it gives me something to do. I'm going to post a few pictures of me and Jordan's adventures since we have been married, I haven't posted any pictures for a long time now. Hope this post didn't sound too whiny, but i am a whiny person by nature so i wont be suprised if it does...Love you all

PICTURE ONE: Me and Jordan at the Winter Quarters Trail Center the day before we got married

PICTURE TWO: Us at Tahoe for the weekend

PICTURE THREE: Jen looking sexy the morning before my wedding at my house

PICTURE FOUR: Us at hollywood studios before riding the tower of terror(SO FUN)

PICTURE FIVE: Us at Epcot in Disneyworld